This past weekend I offended a friend.
We made a plan to pray together, and before we did, I discussed with her how difficult Thanksgiving had been for me. Dinner was just right, just what I needed, but the lead up to the family gathering had me in a state of severe woe. I’m ready for a different kind of family gathering already, you know? I want to have my own place, with my own china, with my own food selections, and my own choice of guests.
So my friend listened and commiserated. Then told me that, like mine, her own Thanksgiving was quite difficult. It capped a particularly difficult week for her. Her car broke down on the highway at 10 o’clock at night and she’d felt scared and alone. Though she was immensely grateful to God for the impressive rescue that He maneuvered out of the situation, she was tired. She wanted to have a husband to call who would come to her rescue. So later that week, during a 2 hour sojourn by bus and train, alone, to her Thanksgiving dinner, she was depressed and lonely. My friend begged God that this be her last Thanksgiving as an unmarried woman.
Unlike her commiseration with me, I offered her insensitivity. I responded with something along the lines of, “How could you not be completely satisfied with the Lord seeing the amazing way that He took care of you that night on the highway?” When she defended herself, and her feelings, I realized what an idiot I was. She is entitled to feel how she feels. “You are right and I am wrong,” I apologized. But when we prayed, I did not pray that God would hasten the arrival of her husband. I prayed that He would bring her peace and a friend, or something like that. Afterwards, I got the impression that my prayer was not appreciated very much. There wasn’t exactly hearty agreement. Which made me feel bad. Had my prayer been laced with judgment? The next day I texted another apology. And my friend did not respond.
The thing is, I feel bad because I couldn’t pray a more supportive prayer. But I couldn’t pray a more supportive prayer because I honestly do not support my friend’s point of view. I emphatically do not believe that marriage is the answer to what ails my friend.
She thinks, as do a lot of singles, that marriage will make everything better. If she were married she would not have to deal with a broken down car on the highway alone at night. But who says so? Having a husband, even a godly husband, does not guarantee that you will get the exact kind of support that you need exactly when you need it. This kind of expectation is a paving stone on the road to divorce, even in Christendom. Maybe your only-too-human husband would come to the scene and make things worse instead of better. Maybe he would be so nervous and worried, about the car, about you, about the money, that you would regret even telling him that you had a problem. Maybe he would be so tired or busy or saddled with childcare that he decides not to come out to meet you, but maybe to stay on the line with you if you want.
My friend thinks that if she were married she would not have to feel angst on Thanksgiving about being alone. But what about the angst that she might feel because she has a family and is not alone? Marriage is not a magic elixir that instantly takes the emotional edge off. Marriage might even add an additional emotional edge. In-laws anyone? What about having to host Thanksgiving for your family and his, doing the shopping, cleaning, cooking, and baking, while still going to work and being Mommy to the kids? What about Thanksgiving road trips with a car full of tired, cranky, or bored kids? What about the added financial strain associated with said Thanksgiving travel?
The point is that marriage is not the answer to every problem that the single woman faces. The unpleasant emotions that surface in all of our lives, married or single, are a cue to listen to what is happening in our souls. And then to bring our real issues or concerns to the Lord. Sadness about breaking down on the highway at night, could be an indication that your soul is longing for intimate relationship with someone, not necessarily a husband. Maybe your soul is wondering if anyone really, truly, cares and needs to be connected to a friend or a relative who will remind you of their care and concern when you are in a bind. Or perhaps feeling sadness signals worry about the cost of car repairs and a fear of inadequate resources. Maybe the feeling of sadness is an indication of sheer fatigue and worry about being able to get done everything that had to be gotten done that night, and then also in the morning despite being doubly tired. Each of these unspoken thoughts, though, because they remained unspoken, could not be addressed or refuted by the Lord. Instead my friend’s true needs, to know that she is loved, that God will provide, and that God will give her strength and grace besides, were transformed into a fantasy wish for a husband who would make all things better.
God help me not to be like one of Job’s comforters. And God help my friend to know You like Job came to know you.